她的眼泪

她哭了。认识她几个月，第一次看到她哭。那时她坐在我身旁，向我诉说着她心中的难过和委屈。她说着她的现在，也提起她的过去。之前她曾经说过一点，提过一些，但这一次她说得更深刻，提得更详细。说着说着，她的双眼开始泛着泪光。我把手伸进口袋，握着口袋中的一包面纸。夺眶的泪滑落她白皙的双颊，握在手中的面纸及时递上。她接过了面纸，擦着泪，继续说。我很少开口，因为她这时需要的，应该是一对聆听的耳朵。她愿意在我面前掉泪，代表她是信任我的。但那时的我，却必须强装镇定，努力压抑心中的不舍及疼痛。真的很痛，痛得我几乎快和她一起哭泣。但我不能，因为那一刻的她需要的是我的坚强，而不是我的懦弱。她说了多少，我便听了多少，然后双方都戴上面具，分道扬镳去面对各自必须面对的人。虽然戴着面具，但心疼，心痛久久未能平息。我恨自己的无能为力，恨自己不能为她多做些什么，让她好过一点。那一夜，我哭了，仿佛是自己的双眼接过她流下的泪，然后继续流着。。。

烂好人？

最近常听到别人说我是个烂好人。我的经理这么说，我的同事这么说，我的朋友也这么说。他们说这样的我很容易被人欺负，利用。其实，我并没有刻意想做个好人。我所做的每一件事，都是因为自己能够从中得到快乐，并不是为了讨好别人。当然，身边人的快乐也能造就我的快乐，所以我习惯戴上一副挂着微笑的面具来面对别人。可是，最近这几天我才发现，我不是别人口中所说的好人，而是个自私的人。

也许是因为之前出席的婚礼，也许是因为圣诞节渐渐逼近，总之我发现自己开始无法抵挡思念，愤怒，懊悔，伤心，难过等种种情绪的来袭。我努力撑着的面具开始越来越沉重，我开始失去控制自己的能力了。我的失常，被周围的人发觉，让关心我的朋友担心。对不起，我不该放任自己的情绪，让人为我担心。我必须尽力不让家人察觉我的不妥，所以实在没有余力来笑着面对同事和朋友。我的自私，我的无能，影响了我周围的人。我习惯独自面对自己的情绪和烦恼，不愿让太多人知道，不愿麻烦别人。大概是因为我是天蝎座吧，所以很难信任别人，而如果不信任别人，更别说分享心事了。我很高兴在这个时候，有人会主动慰问，却也很懊悔和抱歉。我的孙女，对不起。红魔球迷，对不起。不过，我会努力撑着。戴紧脸上的面具，因为我希望你们因为我而开心地微笑，不是为我担忧。我始终是自私的，不是个好人，只能努力学着做个好人吧。

微醺的感觉

我一向来滴酒不沾，但是在开始工作后，我接触过了啤酒，烈酒，红酒和白酒。坦白说，我并不喜欢就酒的味道，但是我却爱上了酒后微醺的感觉。记得那晚是我在公司里的偶像的喜酒，我打至心底为他感到开心，但是每一幕漾溢着幸福快乐的片段，却也仿佛是在嘲笑我和她永远无法实现的梦想。我们也曾一起幻想过属于我们的婚礼。要以Savage garden的Truly Madly Deeply或98Degrees的I Do Cherish U为进行曲？要摆桌或是自助餐？要中式或是西式的婚礼？看着婚礼的进行，不想碰触的回忆不由自主地涌进脑海里，挥之不去。我那副挂着微笑的面具开始撑不住了。看着别人手中的红酒，我也向侍应生点了一杯。虽然还是无法好好欣赏它的味道，但此时此刻它是我唯一的救恕。几口几口把它喝完，我又点了一杯白酒，因为有同事告诉我这样比较容易醉。他是想劝我别喝太多，但我不听劝，又几口几口地把那杯白酒喝完。我的脑袋开始像一袋水，摇摇晃晃，不清不楚。我要的，就是这种感觉。还未失去反应能力，却已无法继续胡思乱想。虽然是短暂的，虽然隔天醒来会头痛欲裂，但是对于被回忆刺痛的我，酒精就像吗啡一样，能让我得到暂时的放松和解脱。

向大头芬说再见

相信所有《大头芬的世界》的听众在知道这个节目即将在31-12-2007结束后一定心有不舍。相信大家也有些心里话想对大头芬这个可爱又迷糊的朋友说。不论你是《大头芬的世界》的忠实听众或者只听过一次，只要你有话想对大头芬说，请email到datoufen@gmail.com. 另外，我知道有不少人和我一样，希望933能推出大头芬的书籍和CD，所以在这里呼吁所有支持这个想法的人。以"i want Da Tou Fen!"为标题，email到datoufen@gmail.com. 这个梦想能不能达成，就靠大家多多支持了。

天堂的样子

很多关心我的人都告诉我
“是时候放开过去，从新开始了”
or let go and move on
其实我不是不懂或不明白
只是，真的是什么事都能说放就放吗？

也有人劝我说让时间治疗伤口，让岁月冲淡回忆
我不知道时间是否如此神奇
我只知道，我的伤口还未痊愈，我的回亿依然如新

我和她就仿佛是两个单纯，天真的小孩
毫无心机，毫无顾虑地关心对方，依赖对方
我们分享了太多，也聊了太多
我们聊宗教组织的管理有何问题
我们聊现代宗教所传达的讯息在岁月的洗礼后还有多少真实性
我们聊社会从古至今对女性的不公平
我们聊我们身为社会学的弟子(disciples of sociology)所背负的使命
我们聊campus superstar到底是智阳还是Theresa比较好
我们聊为什么夏日风可以在superband生存那么久
我们聊彼此都无法与父母沟通的无奈
我们聊现代男女的速食爱情多不可取
我们聊现代社会有多么不利于生育子女
我们聊以后结婚时要用Savage garden的Truly Madly Deeply或98Degrees的I Do Cherish U为进行曲
我们聊Sagwa和Powerpuff Girls有多好看
我们聊在Zidane世界杯决赛为何会如此冲动
我们聊以后要住在Jurong或Tampines
我们聊以后的房子要以粉红和粉蓝为主
我们聊以后要搬出来过二人世界
我们聊不要请全职女佣而俜请钟点帮佣
我们聊两个人在一起要有如双手相互紧握，任何一方都不能松手
我们聊。。。我们聊了太多太多了

因为她，我领略到心灵契合的奇妙
因为她，我尝到同时爱人与被爱的喜悦
因为她，我第一次有置身天堂的感觉
因为她，我感觉到真实，完整的快乐

我害怕我会孤独终老
因为我认为她无可取代
她的人，她的爱及我对她的爱都无可替代

对所有劝我的人，我想说一句
“当你见过天堂的样子，你是不可能会忘记的”

我不能给妳安慰

To: a dear friend

望着伤心的妳，
我无言以对。
不是不想给妳安慰，
只是要遍体鳞伤的我给妳安慰，
似乎只会显得愚昧。

我不能告诉妳未来会更美，
因为我的未来早已幻灭。
我无法劝妳别再掉泪，
只因自己的眼泪仍无法停歇。

我们都听不进别人的劝。
我们都执迷不悔。
我们都是伤心人，
在他们遗落的世界徘徊。

每当妳掉下泪，
别忘了有个人的心也还在淌血。
如果妳哭得有点累，
我不能给妳安慰，只能陪妳分担一些。

流泪

流泪，流出的是什么？
是对妳无法自拔的依恋？
还是被背叛的滋味？

流泪，为的是什么？
是为了让自己好过一些？
或只是以泪洗面然后再哭一回？

别人问我为何流泪？
我也问过自己好几遍。
答案无解，只知道夺眶的泪还有一些。

SMS to 佩芬 and Ivy 14

WRM Wesley: i'm workin as a financial services consultant so my stress comes frm my sales as my pay is purely commission based. Hv to wk frm day to nite & often wkends as well. As 4 destress, i listen to 933 wif my hp when i'm on the move and watch soccer on tv. Basically i love my work so makes things a bit easier :)

SMS to 佩芬 and Ivy 13

WRM Wesley: morning peifen & ivy! Actually there is already a "hovercar" prototype which works, jus tat the fuel consumption & some technical problems prevent it frm being mass produced. So a hovercar may not b so far away wor :)

Goodbye Orchard Library

An end of an era...no I don't mean England's failure to qualify for the 2008 European Championship. I mean Orchard Library official closure on the 30th November. I've been hanging out at Orchard library ever since god knows when coz it's a different library as compared to the other community libraries in Singapore. It's more like a town library with a modern and hip image. Besides, this is the only place where I can find lots of my favourite reading materials: magazines, comics and chinese novels all in one library. Orchard library is a place where I'll always go to when I'm in town and it's surprising that some people actually do not know of its existence even though they have been to Takashimaya like a million times. Guess reading is still not that prevalent in Singapore. Anyway, for those who haven't been to Orchard library before, why not drop by and have a look? It is at the 5th level of Takashimaya and for convenience, feel free to use the escalator in Kinokuniya and u will arrive straight at its side entrance. Soon Orchard library will be history and I can only hope the relocated library does not lose its "modern" spirit. Thanks Orchard library for all the happy moments :D



My Spiritual Home




My fav english comics esp those from Marvel such as Spiderman, X-Men, F4...etc




My 2 fav chinese authors: 卫斯理(倪匡)and 吴淡如




My fav chinese comics such as Slam Dunk, Yugioh, Celestial Zone 1 and 2...etc.




My fav magazines about chinese entertainment and soccer :p

My Birthday Cake :p

This is my birthday cake....that's right, i'm a 24 year old man (or boy?)who celebrate my 24th birthday with this cake coz I simply LOVES Bubbles so much. Hahaha my brother keep laughing at me for this but I don't care coz that's who I am: a Bubbles-loving 24 year old :D Btw, thanks for all the birthday wishes which I received including Xuehuoy, Ashley, Huiting, Jean, Sinyee, Susan, Kat, Kenneth, Yong, Raymond, my family and all those who I fail to mention. Thank u all so much and Birthday boy wishes all of you a happy and successful year ahead!

SMS to 佩芬 and Ivy 12

WRM Wesley: clap clap clap! Horray for peifen & ivy! Haha i'm sure even though u guys can't hear it, lots of listeners are supporting by tuning in every morning. jiayou!

Reply:
Hey Wesley! A big THANK YOU for your support! :)-pf n ivy

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中秋节快乐!

To all who visits my blog:

中秋花好月儿圆
亲朋戚友在身边
吃块月饼庆佳节
祝你事事都如愿

中秋节快乐!

安全的距离

人与人之间都会有一个所谓“安全的距离”。
只要是在安全距离之外，两个人就能在毫无压力的状态下，轻松地，愉快地相处及交流。
但是，一旦跨越了这个安全距离，彼此之间便存在着伤害对方的可能性，压力也随之而来。
担心自己伤害对方，也担心自己被对方伤害。
在这样的状态下，相处及交流将不再轻松，愉快。
取而代之的是猜忌，不满。
所有过往的美好时光将成为往事，感情的基础也将一步步地遭到破坏。
到了这个时候，只有两个选择。
一是彼此退到安全距离之外，过往的亲密就成为尘封的回忆，不再提起。
快乐成了禁区
甜蜜成了禁语
曾经的浓情蜜意也只能成了点水之交。
二是拒绝退步，让两个人所有的努力和付出都化为乌有，甚至变质。
快乐变成了恐惧。
甜蜜变成了苦涩。
曾经的亲密变成了永远无法跨越的距离。

如果有一天，你发现你和她已跨越了这个安全距离，你会选择哪一个呢？

o我选择后者。

Happy Birthday to 佩芬!

SMS to 佩芬 11:
WRM Wesley: happy birthday to princess peifen!Wish u all the best in whatever u do!

Reply:
thanks :)-pf

SMS to 佩芬 10

Wkn wesley: hi peifen! been listenin 2 yr mornin show wif cruz & ivy very interestin light up my mornings so jiayou! Dedicate d next song 2 peifen & all datoufen fans!

You're my Solskjaer, my Ole Solskjaer

Ole Gunnar Solskjaer, one of my favourite footballers ever, announced his retirement on the 27th August 2007. Despite not being a fan of Man Utd, I've been following his career ever since he made his debut in 1996 and scoring against Blackburn Rovers, ironically my favourite club. During his career spanning from 1996 to 2007, Solskjaer would be remembered for a number of things.

1. Baby-faced assassin
Solskjaer will probably be the one and only "baby-faced assassin" in the history of football. Hidden behind his boyish looks is a critical finisher who, more often than not, makes his chances count. Unlike Andy Cole, who is famously known for requiring 3 chances to score a goal, Solskjaer is efficiency personified. Given his ability to convert his chances effectively, it was a shame that Solskjaer spent a significant part of his Man Utd career on the bench. If he was given the luxury of a starting berth in the majority of matches like Van Nistelrooy in the past, he might very well become one of the top scorers in Man utd history. His time on the bench brings us to the next thing he will be remembered for, as a...

2. Super-sub
Solskjaer is well-known for being the trump card in Sir Alex ferguson's sleeve when the tide is against his team. Who will ever forget the night at Nou Camp in 1999 when Solskjaer stamped his name among the Man Utd legends with his winning goal against Bayern Munich in the dying seconds of the game? Or his heroics of scoring the winning goal in the FA Cup against arch-rivals Liverpool after coming off the bench? Or his 4 goals performance against Nottingham Forest after coming on as a substitute? One reason highlighted by Ferguson for Solskjaer's amazing ability to make an impact off the bench is the fact that Solskjaer was constantly studying the match as it progressed, his mind being on the pitch though his body wasn't, which may explain his ability to adapt quickly to the tempo of the game after coming on. His super-sub status, however, might have brought him a dilemma in terms of his career choice and his decision proved that Solskjaer is a...

3. true Red Devil
Given his predatory instincts, it came as no surprise that clubs in England and abroad would love to give him a place in the starting 11 which he rightfully deserved. However, Solskjaer resisted the temptation to move and stayed at Old Trafford when many other footballers would have moved in search of first team football. Why did he stay? Is it his gratitude for Sir Alex? Is it his love for the Old Trafford faithful? Whichever the reasons, by making such a decision, Solskjaer proved himself to be a true Red Devil and the professionalism he displayed, when compared to the prima donnas in the Premier League today, has to be respected and applauded.

Overall, from a personal point of view, even though Solskjaer have officially retired from the game, he will always remain one of my favourite footballers of all time. But don't bet of Solskjaer slipping off the football radar as I have a sneaking suspicion that Solskjaer may step into management in future. Considering that ex-Man Utd players such as Mark Hughes, Roy Keane, Steve Bruce, Bryan Robson and Steve Coppell have all made the transition from players to managers with varying degrees of success, it will be no surprise if Solskjaer is the next in line, where his ability to study the game from the sidelines may prove invaluable as a manager who can turn the tide of a game just like Sir Alex. Solskjaer as a Man Utd manager someday? Sounds good to me :p

忘不了的记忆

换了新的手机
没把妳的号码输入机里
是故意
想让时间冲淡对妳的记忆

可惜当妳生日来临
恍然发现一切只是自欺
妳的生日我没忘记
妳的号码仍留在记忆里，挥之不去

是时间不够充裕？
还是自己不够坚定？
越想忘记妳
越发觉忘记妳谈何容易

不想再勉强自己
毕竟回忆有苦涩也有甜蜜
或许无法忘记
只证明自己还是爱着妳

珍惜眼前的快乐

别以为友情是无坚不摧，也别对友情抱着绝对的信心与期望。因为期望越大，失望越大。没有谁不会抛弃谁，也没有谁肯定会帮助谁。珍惜眼前的快乐，不管未来如何，至少彼此都曾真心无私地付出过。其实不止友情如此，爱情也是如此，不是吗？

开心就好

放弃未必是懦弱
总好过钻牛角尖，死不放手
放下不应靠勇气
应该是顺其自然，无需刻意

每个人在一生中都会有想放弃什么或放下什么的时候。其实，不管是放弃或放下，不应该勉为其难，因为这样只会更无法放弃，更放不下。顺其自然，你会在不知不觉中发现你已经放弃你所应该放弃的，放下你所想要放下的。至于该不该放弃，要不要放下，又是另外一个问题了。总而言之，开心就好。

我仍爱着

如果我注定不能幸福快乐
我会把孤独与寂寞当作我光荣的勋章
告诉所有的人
爱一个人不应该是因为害怕寂寞
爱一个人不应该是因为渴望被爱
相反的
爱妳让我接受寂寞
爱妳让我不必被爱
爱着妳的我，不再被妳所爱
爱着妳的我，因为爱妳而寂寞
但我仍爱着
因为我有幸真挚的，纯粹的爱妳
也有幸被自己如此爱着的妳所爱过
抱着这一丝苦涩的幸福
我仍爱着

My workplace :p

The entrance to my dreams and aspirations


Never imagined that I'll be working inside a corporate building :p

慧娴加油!

现在的我其实应该睡了，但是我好开心，因为慧娴成功通过翻身赛了!相信所有收看校园superstar 的观众都会对慧娴留下印象，因为她太可爱了!当然，慧娴也有一定的歌唱实力，只是有时会觉得她的唱腔过于成熟，与她可爱的外形有点格格不入。不过，慧娴还是我在这一届校园superstar里最喜欢的参赛者。我个人是觉得慧娴蛮适合唱杨承琳的歌曲，所以希望她在接下来的比赛中要慎选参赛歌曲，因为选对歌曲就已经成功了一半。虽然今晚因为工作而错过了慧娴的演唱，但是还好我来得及收看比赛结果。尽管因工作而累了一整天，我在听到慧娴成功进入下一圈时还是高兴得跳了起来，大喊大叫。开心嘛!哈哈哈!总而言之，经过翻身赛的洗礼，相信慧娴接下来的表现将会更加出色，更加令人期待。慧娴!我支持妳!要加油喔!

A summary of my past week or so

1. I had my foundation program from the previous thursday to the past wednesday. The class was really nice and friendly so does the trainers especially Grace who I thought had struck a good rapport with the class. Ros and Benjie were always fun to have around while the rest such as Jean, KK, Jieming, Jade, Faizal, Ali, Zac, Crystal...and many more had all been pleasant companions throughout the 5 days. During the 5 days, I've heard from Benjie and Crystal about their dreams. Benjie wants: a condo near IR and the upcoming F1 track, a holiday at Australia to eat huge and expensive crabs, a yatch at Monaco, a whole lot of vintage wines plus a few nice cars. Crystal wants a 5-room flat of her own as well as a European holiday by the end of the year. As for me, right now I just hope to clear my study loan and my parents' housing loan...the rest see how ba. Anyway glad to have known so many "comrades" in the industry and hope we can all make it to the Million Dollar Round Table soon enough!

2. I had my NUS commencement on 070707, the day which, according to the papers, was a lucky day to get married. How ironic coz while others were celebrating with their loved ones, whether it was at ROM or NUS, I was there alone. I invited her but till the end, as expected, she didn't appear. I thought that I would be really sad and depressed but I didn't. I guess I can see things in a more open light now and anyway I still have the best wishes from people who really care for me. Back to the ceremony, it was a fine occasion. Eunice Olsen was the guest speaker and I was shocked when she said she actually retook her 'A' Levels before coming to NUS. I was really filled with a sense of pride as I went up the stage to collect my scroll, which summed up my 10 over years of academic journey. There were highs and lows and I must admit that only after entering NUS then I felt that I was really learning about knowledge, not simply facts and numbers. Being in NUS was an enriching experience and though I was a little sad with not being able to go into Honours, I can encourage myself that I'm now going to step into the University of Life and hopefully I can do well, achieve my dreams and bring a little light and warmth to every person I come across.

3. As I am writing this, I am going for my 1st opening this evening at 6.45pm. I received words of encouragement from my comrades as well as some discouraging ones from my mum. nevertheless, one thing I've come to realise is that to achieve, I must be positive and not be put down by others. I am going to be the one to decide my own success or failure, not any other.

To Huiting: 嗨! 最近好吗？这几天看妳的blog，觉得妳好像是被一些感情的事所困扰，也看得出妳多姿多彩的校园生活。要开心喔! 我不是指在朋友面前的笑脸，而是发自内心的开心。喜欢小猪的人应该要快乐才对嘛，就像他努力的表演，也是希望所有小猪迷都能开开心心的。日子不管是开心或悲伤都是要过的，那么何不选择笑着面对呢？

Some of Thierry Henry's best goals

1. Arsenal vs Charlton
This goal is cheeky yet extremely difficult to execute. Lots of players attempted but failed. henry certainly didn't.



2. Real Madrid vs. Arsenal
A solo goal from henry, displaying strength, pace and skill as well as the composure to provide a cool finish.



3. Arsenal vs. Man Utd
This goal is special even if it wasn't against Man Utd. Simply because who else other than a genius can display such speed of though and improvisation?



4. Arsenal vs. Liverpool
To score a solo goal against a Liverpool defence marshalled by Hyypia and Carragher...what more can i say?



5. Arsenal vs. Tottenham
This solo goal against Spurs will live long in the memories of all Gunners fans. The fact that it was against their north London rivals made it even sweeter.



To Huiting：没想到你这么热衷于华文。我在初级学院时是中文学会的喔 :p 很高兴这年头还有像你这样的年轻人对华文有兴趣。要记得，只要努力，你一定有可能成为记者的。说不定有一天你能访问小猪呢。加油喔。

Goodbye and thanks to Thierry Henry

I've been following Thierry Henry at Arsenal for so long that I have forgotten when it all started. But what I can remember are many of the wonderful skills and beautiful goals which Henry displayed and left millions around the world in awe. While i am definitely sad about Henry leaving Arsenal and the Premiership, I also feel that he has already stayed one season longer as he could have left after last season's Champion's League final. I think he would have stayed on for the rest of his career if not for the David Dein incident and Arsenal's lack of competitiveness in the 2006/2007 season. Whatever the case, I am truly thankful of the goals, assists, efforts and inspirations which Henry provided during his 8 years at Arsenal. He is not only a marvellous footballer but also an honorable human who has conducted himself with dignity in most times on and off the field. I hope Arsenal fans can be understanding and not blame him for leaving as he has been a loyal servant to the club and given the chance, he will love to win the European Cup with the Gunners. While such a dream will probably not materialise, no one should ever doubt his commitment to Arsenal as well as his desire to succeed with the club. I wish Henry all the best in his new club and hopefully he can finally win the only trophy he hasn't won so far which is the European Cup. Lastly, just want to say that i am truly grateful to be able to witness a true footballing legend playing on a football field live through television. Goodbye Henry and thanks for the memories.

SMS to 佩芬 09

Night wesley: hi princess peifen! Great to hear yr voice at night even though it's only for tis week. Peifen goin back to 2pm to 5pm shift next week? Don't want to miss yr voice haha. K la dedicate the next song to peifen & all 933 listeners may everyone has a sweet dream tonight!

第18屆金曲獎观后感

第18屆金曲獎的成绩在昨晚已正式揭晓。虽然cable有转播，但由于S.H.E没有入围也没出席，所以我并没有全程观看。不过知道了得奖名单，还是有些惊喜。我没有想过小胖(李玖哲)会得到最佳男歌手，也没想到Jolin会得到最佳女歌手，更没想到MC Hotdog会得到最佳专辑。没有想到但却很开心，因为就整体来说，这些得奖者也代表金曲獎也开始能包容与接纳较商业及另类的音乐。商业的音乐往往做得再好还是会被沦为商业，即使水准再高也会被忽略。而像MC Hotdog这样的另类音乐，往往会被认为通俗及没有格调。这次的金曲獎让我看到，只要是好音乐，只要是好歌手，就不会因为类别而被忽略。

蔡依琳

我觉得这次Jolin的得奖，肯定的不是《舞娘》这张专辑，而是她自出道后一路走来所付出的努力。我从Jolin出道的第一张专辑《1019》就开始支持她到现在，看着她一路跌跌撞撞，后来成为销售天后，现在成为金曲歌后，除了高兴，也很感动，觉得她终于得到她所应得的肯定。严格来讲，我认为在《舞娘》这张专辑里Jolin是保持她的水准，而她真正突破性的代表作，应该是她第一次入围金曲奖的《看我72变》专辑。但无论如何，Jolin这次得奖，在我眼里绝对是实至名归的。

張韶涵

張韶涵这次是凭《潘多拉》这张专辑入围的，而如果以这张专辑为标准，那在下一届金曲奖，Angela肯定能以《梦里花》这张专辑再次入围最佳女歌手，甚至是最佳专辑。《梦里花》不论是在曲风或是Angela的表现方式都比《潘多拉》更加丰富，成熟。所以希望Angela不要失望，寄望明年，因为明年就自身的表现及专辑的水准，得奖的机率肯定更高。

罗志祥

Show这次虽然夺得票选最受欢迎歌手，却没有作品入围金曲奖。我不知道《Speshow》这张专辑是过了报名期或是报了名却没有入围，但如果是后者，我会觉得《Speshow》是这届金曲奖的遗珠。以前我不喜欢Show，因为他和我心目中的女神Selina闹绯闻，而我对此十分有意见，觉得他看起来是个花花公子，对Selina不是认真的。我一直为此而讨厌小猪，直到《Speshow》这张专辑。或许是绯闻淡静了下来，让我能脱下我的有色眼镜，客观地听他的歌，看他的表演。我必须说，小猪不论是在专辑里或舞台上已渐渐形成一种天王的架势，越来越具大将之风。这次没能入围，希望他以Jolin为目标，坚持自己的风格，相信自己有一天也能凭本身的努力及舞台魅力当上金曲歌王。想对小猪说：When you can win an enemy over with your performance, that is the best compliment.

庭竹

庭竹的《雨声》专辑是在最近冒起的新人中较为出色的专辑，所以希望在明年的金曲奖，庭竹能入围并勇夺最佳新人 ：D

SMS to 佩芬 08

Star Wesley: Hi Peifen welcome back! I've been on a long flight b4 when i went to Germany a few years back & i was quite lucky as i met a friendly old Swedish couple & we virtually chatted for the whole flight as we talked abt each other's life experiences in different cultures. It was reali enjoyable & we even exchanged mails after we seperated. Think i'm really lucky to meet such friendly passengers.

Reply to Huiting

Whoa I'm surprised by your offer leh :p coz the albums are opened before and are not autographed. But dun worry, they are still in decent condition. Show's early albums very rare now perhaps? My brother want me to emphasize that 达人show he has never listened b4 only opened the plastic wrapping. Also, to make things clearer, Showtime and 达人show have vcds while 催眠show does not have vcd. Do u mind giving me your msn when u post your comment so that we can negotiate further? Btw my brother suggested to let you have a look at the albums in person b4 deciding on the price and which one u want to buy first. Know that u're saving up for Show's concert so confirm below 20 bucks. K lah that's all hope to hear from u soon :D

Special Advert to Huiting

1. Showtime
2. 达人show
3. 催眠show

These are the 3 albums that my brother has. Opened before but still in decent condition. Won't mind selling on a cheap so let me know which ones you want and how much you wish to offer :p

在雨天赖床

我今天早上四点上床睡觉，下午两点多起床。身为一只标准的夜猫子，我时常到四点或更迟才上床睡觉，但是已经好久没试过睡到下午两点多才起床。其实我大概早上十一点多就醒了，但是看到外头下着倾盆大雨，我就拾起被我在睡梦中踢飞的被子，将它披上，然后继续睡。没有睡得很沉，因为我在享受那种外头冷冷的，身体却因被子包着而暖暖的感觉。什么都不想，什么都不做。就像只冬眠的熊一样。等我正式开始工作后，就很少有机会享受这种感觉了。可能连八个小时的睡眠都会变成一种奢望吧。所以，今天我享受在雨天赖床的感觉，真的很棒。

To Huiting:

From your last blog entry, seems like u're not very happy wor. Though I don't know what happened, just want to say that a lot of times, people try to please others and often compromise themselves in the process. While that desire to please people around you is great to have, you don't have to constantly comnpromise yourself and do things you don't really want to do. Live your life the way you want to live it coz it's your life after all and you are the one and only one who will appreciate the highs and lows of it all. By the way, just like to ask if you're interested to buy Show's 1st 3 albums coz my brother wants to sell them and he don't mind selling them on a cheap. If u're interested just let me know :)

负荷

今天听到933主打的新歌里有庭竹的《负荷》，好开心喔。我从听完她的专辑后就觉得这首歌会是下一波的主打，果真给我料中了，真是英雄所见略同。这首歌很动听，很伤感，描述两个人在一段感情里从相爱到互相伤害而不得不分开的无奈。希望大家听了这首歌之后会喜欢。这首歌目前似乎没有MV，所以下面这个youtube video是庭竹现场演唱的《负荷》希望大家听了这首歌之后会喜欢。

All the best to 933

今天看到崇庆遭到意外的照片，真的吓了一跳，也替他心疼难过。几个礼拜前，他还在我参加明星DJ的初赛时问过我问题。当时还好好的，怎么会这样？不止崇庆，志勇也出了意外。想着想着就觉得好邪门。在这里为所有933的DJ及工作人员祈祷，希望大家都能平平安安。佩芬放假了，也希望她平平安安，玩得开心。期待6月5号听到她的声音再次出现在空中。

On a special note to Huiting: saw your blog entries so 2 things to tell you.
1. If you want to go Show's concert just take MC loh,I also used to take MC during my NS in order to attend Jolin's autograph session so trust me, MC is not that difficult to get :p
2. Don't be too disappointed with your results. What really matters is that you do well in your 'O' Levels. A little experience talk here: for english just read more english stuff like newspapers, books and magazines and also take note of current affairs which will be important when you do your GP paper in Sec 4. Language cannot study last-min must accumulate everyday. Hope you don't find me too kaipoh :p

SMS to 佩芬 07

Noon Wesley: Hi Peifen! Aiyoh weibin fell sick? Hope Peifen & the remaining 933 DJs take care ya. Dedicate the next song to all workers wish them gd health. Oso wish u & all 933 DJs gd health & a smooth day ahead.

SMS to 佩芬 06

Noon Wesley: Hi Peifen! Just heard frm yr program abt tat survey on walking speed. Actually, the samples are selective & Hongkong is left out so the results may not be tat accurate. But I must admit the pace of life here is very fast. Wish to dedicate the next song to Cruz & wish him a speedy recovery. Wish peifen a nice day ahead too! :)

专辑：雨声 歌手：庭竹

关于专辑：雨声
我不是一个专业的音乐人，所以只想表达一下自己听了这张专辑后的感想及感觉。这张专辑的风格很统一，带有民谣与摇滚的味道。歌曲大多采用较简单朴实的编曲，让人听起来很轻松，很舒服。歌词中所探讨的也不只是爱情，也包括亲情，友情，男女问题及现代都市人所面对的烦恼。这一点或许是受到偶像张雨生的影响吧。不盲目的跟着时下流行的中国风或Hip Hop，庭竹的歌曲有如当今乐坛的一股清流，让人感觉清新。庭竹在专辑包办了大部分的词曲，而从中也不难看出她的创作功力，让她能通过简单但细腻的词曲将感情与想法表达出来。专辑里有许多值得推荐的歌曲如纪念张雨生的《雨声》，提倡女性自主的《小女人》，感伤的《现在的你》和《负荷》，探讨现代都市人的《骗自己》及包含友情和亲情的《远方的祝福》。我本身尤其喜欢acoustic version的《负荷》，很简单，很感人。我不常买cd，但是我很庆幸自己买了这张专辑。

关于歌手：庭竹
当今乐坛有不少创作型女歌手如陈绮贞，蔡健雅，戴佩妮及最近刚发片的许哲佩。庭竹也是走创作型女歌手的路线，而她又有什么突围而出的条件呢？ 庭竹的外形虽称不上让人惊艳，但让人感觉舒服，耐看。她的歌声有辨识度，不会让人觉得像其他歌手。另外，她的歌声也让人觉得轻松，没有压力，而且从这张专辑也听出她的歌声的可朔性，不论是轻快或抒情的歌曲都能唱，并且唱出自己的特色。她的创作能力也能从这张专辑中得到证实。加上庭竹的歌曲有如当今乐坛的一股清流，让人感觉清新，所以这张专辑能在众歌手中突围而出，取得不错的成绩。然而，许多人都说第二张专辑定生死，所以在下一张专辑，庭竹需要通过唱法及歌曲进一步加深与加强“庭竹”的独特性。另外，也许是第一张专辑的关系，曲风及所探讨的话题都明显的受到市场的一些局限。希望在下一张专辑，庭竹能够在歌曲上有更多自主权，尝试更多不一样的东西。从庭竹的第一张专辑，我听出更多的可能性，不论是歌唱或创作上。希望庭竹能继续加油，用妳的创意做出更多好音乐，用妳的歌声唱出更多感人的歌。

SMSes to 佩芬 01-05

通过佩芬甜美悦耳的声音读出我的smses，感觉就像与朋友聊天般舒服，亲切。每一则她读出的sms代表一个快乐的时刻。谢谢佩芬，我最喜爱的933DJ. I'll support u 4ever!

24-04-2007
933 hi peifen i'm wesley. I'm a uni undergrad hv lots of notes to print so i'll make sure i use both sides of the papers.

28-04-2007
WKN Wesley: Hi Peifen!Want to dedicate the next song to myself coz havin my last paper at 1pm. Oso wish u a happy weekend & hope man utd win everton tonight!

01-05-2007
Noon wesley: hi peifen!Wish to dedicate the next song to Kaleen, wish her a happy labor day & though she's stil keeping me at arm's length, there will always b a place for her in my heart. Oso wish peifen a happy labor day & have fun after your shift is over.

07-05-2007
933 Wesley: Hi Peifen! I oso hv sensitive nose so i can understand hw u feel. Jus drink more water & keep yrself warm & u wil b ok soon ya. Man Utd wins title loh so happy 1st title in 3 years!Dedicate the next song to Peifen & all fans of Red Devils hope man utd win FA Cup too!

08-05-2007
933 Wesley: hi peifen! Sounds like your nose is better now le wor take care ya. I'm now graduating so looking for job. Does 933 hv any vacancy? Haha dedicate the next song to u hope u hv a gd afternoon ahead & hope i find a job soon :)

庭竹and佩芬made my beautiful Monday

终于买了这张专辑。仔细想一想，如果想要庭竹来新加坡宣传的话，就应该让她知道在这里有人买她的正版专辑，支持她的音乐。不想好音乐，好声音被埋没，所以决定用行动表示支持。希望所有注意到庭竹，喜欢庭竹的新加坡歌迷都能购买正版专辑，让唱片公司有信心让庭竹来这里办签唱会和其他的宣传活动。买了专辑后马上回家播来听，只能说这张专辑没有让我失望。本来想写篇album review的，不过后来决定多听几天再动笔。无论如何，买了庭竹的专辑好开心，虽然cd casing not very user-friendly，不过包装不重要，好音乐才是重点。另外，今天佩芬在933的空中读出我的sms，还说她注意到我常sms给她，谢谢我对“下午茶，白日梦”的支持。太开心了，因为佩芬是我最喜欢的DJ。我每天都会听“下午茶，白日梦”，就算以后佩芬换班，我还是会尽力每天收听的。总而言之，thanks to 庭竹 and 佩芬, 7th May 2007, monday is a beautiful day.

Special note to Huiting: Normally when singers come to s'pore for autograph sessions, they will put autograph coupons or 通行证 in the albums' 2nd version so that people who want the autographs will have to buy another album for the coupon. Basically, no coupon no autograph and also those with coupons can queue more in front than those without coupons. Haha at least it was like that when I was chasing S.H.E and Jolin in the past. If there's a different system now, welcome to let me know about it thanks :p

To buy or not to buy

Today, I saw 庭竹's album at the Sembawang Music Center in Hougang Mall. Finally coz I've been on a lookout for her album for the past week or so. I don't usually buy cds except those of Jolin, S.H.E and F.I.R which are must-buys for me so I guess I'm really attracted to her music to make stingy me take out my wallet :p In fact, I'm thinking of going to her autograph session if she comes to Singapore. Haven't been to one for years coz feel like I'm too old to go for such things. But anyway here comes my dilemma: if I buy the cd now, I have to buy another one if she comes to Singapore and I wish to go to her autograph session. If I wait till she comes, I don't even know if she's coming in the first place and I really wish to hear all her songs and discover other unknown gems of hers. So, to buy or not to buy, that is the question...

现在的你 by 庭竹

半夜看cable，突然发现这首由庭竹作词作曲的一首歌。对她写的词很有共鸣，也只有经历过这种伤痛的人才能有所体会吧。编曲从开始的简单到复歌的澎湃，带出从淡淡的哀愁得不到解脱而忍不住从内心痛苦的呐喊。到了最后一切归回平淡，淡淡的哀愁只想问“現在的你是否也在想我，想我過的好不好”，只想说“曾經有個人陪伴你，一直有個人想著你，永遠有個人在默默祝福。。著你。。 等你”。庭竹动听的歌声和动人的诠释让这首歌能够进入我内心的最深处，那个受了伤还隐隐作痛的角落。如果她能听到这首歌，她应该会知道我的心情吧。这首歌，献给所有经历过失去真爱的人。



《现在的你》

在沒有月光的夜
在沒有人陪的房～間
在孤獨的氣氛只剩我一個人
想著你 發呆到天亮
黑暗中 有你的臉
看著我 甜甜的笑
不知道 怎麼好遠 才發現你已離開我身邊 喔

現在的你是否也在想我 想我過的好不好
現在的你是否也在看著 遠遠天空閃亮的星
以後的我一定還會為你 保留一個位置
將來的你 也許可以想起

在燈光昏黃的夜
仍空無一人的房～間
你瀟灑的離開卻留我一個人
想著你 哭泣到天亮
黑暗中 有你的臉
看著我 甜甜的笑
不知道 怎麼好遠 才發現你已離開我身邊 喔

現在的你是否也在想我 想我過的好不好
現在的你是否也在看著 寂寞的夜空
現在的你是否也在想我 想我過的好不好
現在的你是否也在看著 遠遠天空閃亮的星
以後的我一定還會為你 保留一個位置
將來的你 也許可以想起
曾經有個人陪伴你 一直有個人想著你
永遠有個人在默默祝福 著你 喔～ 等你 喔～


On a speciate note, just want to tell Huiting that 小女人 is a very interesting song. Think 庭竹's voice is so good that she makes almost any song sounds good. Thanks for your recommendation.

Yes 933明星DJ争霸赛：赛后感

哈哈考试结束了，我也可以静下心来写一写我参加Yes 933明星DJ争霸赛的一些感想。这场比赛分成初赛，半决赛和决赛，而我很遗憾也很幸运地止步于半决赛。为什么这么说呢？因为既然参加了就一定会有期待，即使是不切实际的期待。然而，我也一直警惕自己要抱着平常心来对待。不管结果如何，至少我趁自己还年轻时追求自己当DJ的梦想，而只要尽了力就不该有遗憾。虽然对于未能闯进决赛有一些些的失望，但是能够进入半决赛已经出乎我的意料之外。因为在初赛时真的很紧张，所以有点词不达意，说起话来也不是很顺畅。以为已经没机会了，没想到后来竟然接到933的工作人员打来的电话通知，真的是喜出望外。无论如何，对于能进入决赛的十位参赛者，我真的是心服口服，也祝他们好运。这次参赛，我除了告诉我的家人和一位朋友外，我也告诉了她。我们的冷战还未结束，而她也没有传简讯替我加油，不过我相信她是在心里默默的支持我，就像她在我心中不曾离开。好了，总而言之，这次是个难得且宝贵的经验，而933的DJ，工作人员及评审也都很亲切。虽然不能成为933的DJ，但我还是会每天收听933的，尤其是佩芬的节目 ：p

On a special note: Thanks to Huiting who left a comment in my post about 庭竹. I didn't post anything on 志勇's blog so quite interested to know how you found me there. But I did post comments on 佩芬's blog. Anyway, hope u can enlighten me on that and thanks again for the websites u recommended.

庭竹

Noticed this new singer 庭竹 recently. A talented singer/song writer, she has talent and a nice voice as well. Heard her 2 songs 雨声 and 喜欢你 really like them very much especially the latter one. Another thing which striked me about her is that she seems to look like a friend of mine...just as pretty haha :p

喜欢你


雨声

Happy Birthday to an Aries angel

I rarely write stuff with english coz always felt that my chinese is way better than my angmoh but since it's a special occasion and a present for a really precious friend...just decided to give it a shot. I've written lots for love but this is a rare piece of writing for friendship hope that it's not too bad :p

Happiness descended from the Aries sign
As an angel emerges from the light
Pretty, caring and polite
Pure with a heart of snowy white
You have bright up people's lives, with your radiant heart and mind

Bringing warmth to melt the ice
I've been blessed like many alike
Roaminhg through a world so wide
To meet you is my greatest delight
Hope your star will always shine
Dancing with joy, day and night
Anywhere you go you will find
Your happiness isn't far behind

爱情魔发师：亚斯的一段话

was watching the rerun of 爱情魔发师 and heard 亚斯 said these:

。。。被放弃的人 不是输家。在爱情的过程里面，我们一直站在付出比较多的那方，所以受伤，嫉妒，开心，欢笑，所有爱情的感觉，我们都比对方多了一倍。当然 伤害也会多了一倍，不过这些现在对方都感受不到了，全部都留给我们承受。不过也正因为我们比别人多了一份爱，才有力量在伤痛中重新站起来。

Meaningful isn't it?

红尘有你

Heard this song on radio recently, struck a chord within my heart...

我心的空间
是妳走过以后的深渊
我情的中间
是妳留下雪泥梦和梦的片段
我梦的里面
是场流离失所的演变
我泪的背面
依然留着一面等妳的天

红尘有妳 就有我无悔的泥
随人间风雨迁进 怨不了无情天地

那苍天从不曾改变 留给我寂寞的誓言
走过人间千百回天涯 又回到深情的原点
那岁月再怎么摧残 我的心不会怕永远
因为梦和爱不会忘记
红尘有妳 红尘有妳

原来你一直都在

Heard this song last friday...felt like it's a message from God, telling me to hold on to my love and not to give it up.

妳原来一直都在
妳从来就不曾离开
一直深深相信就算分开
我们的爱仍在
其实妳一直都在
常在我的心里陪伴
我一直在期待妳有一天回来
原来妳一直都在

我不想忘记你

Heard this song on tv by accident. The lyrics are so touching that i cried on the spot. Guess I can relate to this song ba.

我努力想起妳笑着哭泣
让自己深爱妳再学会放弃
我不想忘记妳
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起妳苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去妳
爱妳这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起