我，到底是怎么了？

妳工作，我不能鼓励妳
妳生病，我不能关心妳
妳伤心，我不能安慰妳
妳快乐，我不能祝福妳

我，到底是怎么了？

举棋不定

有些无法控制的东西
如感情，如思绪
有些无法自拔的东西
如回忆，仍清晰

有些东西已深埋在心里
不管眼里多少美丽身影
纵使心里泛起些许涟漪
却已无法腾出任何空隙

妳的讯息，我仍然关心
妳的近况，我依然在意
该孤注一掷还是停留原地
我，还是举棋不定。

最幸福的事

我最幸福的事 當過你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩飾 讓我們像當時 擁抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蠟燭時你總為我許願的手勢
為摯愛的人 在左邊心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一陣子有你 美的不像現實
多高興每一幕都微笑著靜止

我最幸福的事 牽著你的日子
一段愛從開始 即使分開我們 都對彼此誠實
最幸福的事 對那片海用力大喊永遠的樣子
想得起那時 那天和你傻笑著認識
是最幸福的事

醉赤壁

“...一世就只能有一次的认真...”

安靜了

"...你说我爱你太多， 就快要把你淹没..."
"...沉默是我最后温柔， 是因为我太爱你..."

突然好想你

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

在相隔一年的时空，妳踩着我曾留下的足迹

一直只能把自己掩盖在黑暗中
默默地关注着妳
只怕如果被妳发现
那么连妳的最后一丝联系也会失去

在一个深夜的凌晨
看见妳出国时拍下的倩影
心里不禁一阵悸动
因为我也曾到过那里

那时的妳
站在我一年前站着的机场
逛着我一年前逛过的商场
经过我一年前经过的大街小巷

忽然，感觉到那段与妳遥不可及的距离
在此时拉近了一些些
因为在相隔一年的时空
妳踩着我曾留下的足迹

时间

我在我的部落格里加了一个怀表设计的时钟
看着时针一秒一秒的走着
不禁感叹时间的流逝

时间一秒一秒的过着
而我也和每个人一样
努力在每一秒刻下属于自己的痕迹

我是个执著的人
常妄想自己能留下一些自己想珍惜的时刻
所以我会保留一些人写下的字迹
也会用我的3110C捕抓瞬间的片刻
想把刹那化为永恒

时间像一本日记
让我能记下生命中重要的人事物
所以虽然我无法停住时间
但我还是会努力的在时间的洪流，留住我在意的一切

SMS to 佩芬 18

09:21:56 20-11-2008

WRM Wesley: morning peifen & jiafa. I feel that takashimaya's toliet has always been rather well maintained while most toliets in hawker centers need improving, esp those tat still collect 10cent per entry.

SMS to 佩芬 17

07:19:57 17-11-2008

WRM Wesley: hi peifen & jiafa. I think taiwanese actor joe zheng yuan chang doesn't fit the muscular look. Zhong dong liang as well :p

手心的余温

11月12日的凌晨0点0分01秒
Shijie始终还是没有回应
带着早能预期的失望
我闭上了双眼，缓缓地进入梦乡

梦里是一片舒服的碧蓝
Shijie和我坐在躺椅上
望着眼前辽阔的大海
我的左手握着Shijie的右手
十支手指相互地紧扣着
Shijie像从前一样诉说着工作上所遇到的苦与乐
而我则专注地听着
感觉就像回到那段最愉快的日子
那段甜得连空气也像是粉红色的日子

然后，虽然不愿意，虽然不舍
但我还是醒来了
耳边却仿佛还传着海浪声
及Shijie甜蜜悦耳的声音
手心也仿佛还留着与Shijie的手紧握的感觉
还留着似梦似真的余温

你们是我的星光

在此，衷心的感谢所有祝福我的人：Michelle, Gesmin, Huiting, Alan, Weiliang, Susan, Jason Yong, KC, Songhong, Xavi, Kenneth, Edna, Sin Yee, Aaron, Ai lian 姐姐, Jean, Faizal, Grace, Jack, Raymond and Geraldine (hope i didn't miss out anyone :p)

这首歌，送给你们 :)

你们是我的星光
流着眼泪陪我成长
回忆在拥抱里灿烂

你们是我的星光
让我能骄傲回头望
曾经用生命歌唱
约定了和你再仰望
同一片星光

Berbatov: Poetry in motion

This, is the reason why Berbatov may be, just may be, the next Eric Cantona...

你不是真正的快樂

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂 關在永遠 鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的 抱著遺憾 一直到老了

你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 重新開始活著

五月天摇滚精神

在10月28日的“我报”里读到一篇关于五月天的报导，里头有一段被称之为“五月天摇滚精神”的字句。读了觉得很有启发性，所以与大家分享一下，一起共勉之。

“有梦想就要努力，但努力不代表就会成功。其实努力的过程就是成功，因为你不去服从那个胆小懦弱的自己。所以我们不歌颂成功，我们歌颂过程。”

我　如果對自己妥協　如果對自己說謊　即使別人原諒　我也不能原諒

你不爱我

“...你不爱我，是我舍不得...”

触不到的恋人

刚读完小中的《触不到的恋人》，心里感触良多。晶和约翰那段虚无漂渺却又刻骨铭心的恋情不禁让我想起了shijie。就像小说里的男女主角，我们也曾感恩于彼此的心灵契合，仿佛找到自己灵魂所一直残缺的那一块。小说里所描述的甜蜜情节也让我“触景伤情”，忍不住在脑海里温习以往的美好时光。小说最后的结局也让我连想着，shijie的离开，或许是对我的祝福。或许我永远也不会知道shijie离开的真正原因，但我相信她，相信她是为了自己，也为了我做了她认为是最妥善的安排。虽然我不认同，虽然我还是觉得我们的友谊被无辜地牺牲了，但我还是相信她是为我好。我也不想让那些愚昧的憎恨和不平摧毁我们曾经真心付出的一切。

最后，只想分享这本扣人心弦的小说。
恋爱中的人，读一读，或许你会更懂得珍惜眼前的幸福。
如果你和我一样，有着一个已触不到的恋人，读一读，或许你会和我一样
学着释怀，学着如何真正去爱。

愛太遠 ，藏不住

永远有多远我看不见
爱在一瞬间说变就变
你曾是我的地平线
想围绕你沉浮起落日夜直到永远
永远有多远
我泪眼看不见
爱在一瞬间
变成冷漠的拒绝
泪水苦又咸
流成汪洋一片
情人和朋友之间
爱太远

藏不自你的爱无法掩饰这痛苦
只好眼看着幸福越来越远坠落在深谷
爱怎么能就此打住
我想变得清楚不必在乎不再受苦
宁愿我相信孤独就让你不屑一顾
心死了不必受苦你却问我为什么想哭
痛苦快乐都藏不住
只能反反覆覆爱的糊涂没有人保护

最好的。。。？

爱睡的四川姑娘张琪在星期一吃到她生平的第一口碗糕(ju gue)。惊为天人的她说这是她在新加坡吃过最好吃的食物。哈哈，可能她在吃碗糕前已经饿坏了吧 :p

我们的Kenneth大哥时常告诉张琪全新加坡最好吃的各种美食在那里，而爱好美食的我们也会依各自的喜好告诉她哪里的烧鸭皮脆肉嫩，哪里的辣椒螃蝎又辣又够味，哪里的碗糕入口即化。。。

这一天，大伙在Tiong Bahru吃东西，也聊着哪里的什么很好吃。其实，我们会喜欢某些地方的某些食物，除了味道好之外，也可能是因为特有的味道能勾起一些美好的回忆。如此一来，尝到的不止是食物本身，也回味着昔日的情感。这样的食物，不仅用舌头来品尝，也用心去体会。喜欢一个人也是一样。她未必是公认的美女，未必善解人意，未必温柔体贴，但你还是会把她当成最好的，独一无二的，无可取代的。因为所投入的不止是五感，还有情感，期许和相处的点滴回忆。哈哈，果然是多愁善感，连聊美食也能连想到那么远。。。终而言之，不管是任何的人事物，相信每个人都会有自己心中最好的心头爱吧。


张琪心中最好吃的新加坡美食

不会忘记

不会忘记曾互不相识
不会忘记曾认定是公司里的buddies
不会忘记曾对彼此敞开心房的时刻
不会忘记曾一起合唱的歌
不会忘记曾给予的安慰和照顾
不会忘记曾付出的时间与心力
不会忘记曾背负的承诺与信任
不会忘记曾哭泣的无数夜晚
不会忘记曾一起喝过的午夜milo
不会忘记曾一起跑的步
不会忘记曾拿过的东西
不会忘记曾一起走的夜路
不会忘记曾无法理清的思绪
不会忘记曾误会彼此的时候
不会忘记曾无法了解的无奈

我们在这一年多的时间经历了不少
从相识到投缘
从深交到无奈
所有的字句
所有的对话
所有的眼泪
所有的感情
都是属于我们俩共同的回忆
不敢期望未来会如何
只想对妳说
不管曾对妳多生气，失望
我不会忘记妳所带来的快乐
也不会忘记妳这个爱美，拜金，睡不醒，
但也专一，坚强，坦白的buddy

另注：衷心祝福妳能随着人生的历练，成为一个有自信，而且清楚知道自己心里想要什么的人，并找到属于自 己的幸福 :)

下雨天

"...怎样的雨， 怎样的夜，怎样的我能让你更想念。雨要多大，天要多黑，才能够有你的体贴 ..."

預感

“...我只想要你最后的答案...”

EPL: A Priceless Moment

My eyes blinked in disbelief when I first saw this news clip on ESPN Sportscenter. Fergie and Wenger sitting side by side, smiling, laughing and in consensus with each other? This is a scene right out of fantasy world but it really happened. For EPL fans out there, we all know that Fergie and Wenger are as different as chalk and cheese and the intense rivalry between the two clubs they managed hasn't help in fostering an amicable relationship between two of the best club managers in recent times. However, both must have the foresight to see the possible erosion of authority for football managers in the not so distant future that they decided to take a stand and send a powerful message to anyone who is willing to listen, especially the foreign owners of EPL clubs, to give managers the required authority to do their job. Serious matters aside, seeing the two managers together for a common cause really warmed my heart and deep down inside, I really believe that despite the rivalry over the past decade, both managers should have a sense of mutual respect for each other's achievements as well as their philosophies of football. Fergie joking with England coach Fabio Capello os another light hearted moment. A really pleasing and different moment of EPL which money can't buy :D

EPL: football gone mad?

Over the past week, events unfolded as I seriously wondered if the English Premier League has descended into a state of total madness. First, thanks to some Arab oil money, Manchester City has now become the richest club in the world and got their hands on a certain Robinho. Then, Alan Curbishley resigned his post as the manager of West Ham while taking a potshot at the West Ham boardroom over interference (and that's putting it mildly) over transfer activities. And, before we know it, Kevin Keegan resigned his position as the manager of Newcastle, citing similar reasons to Curbishley which undermined his authority at the club.

Realise the similarities? All three clubs have their unique histories in English football. All three clubs are owned by foreign investors. All three clubs have splurged tons of money in the transfer market, buyng players at grossly inflated price tags and now, 2 managers have been effectively "forced" to resign after realising that it is the board and not the manager who decides the players to buy and sell. This is a worrying trend which has been underlying in the Premier League ever since foreign money started pouring in after the commercialisation of English football and current events are just indicators of a possible drastic change in the football landscape with regards to how a football clun will be run in future.

My personal favourite clubs are Blackburn Rovers and Arsenal and I'm happy with the fact that these 2 clubs, in my view, represent the right way that a club should function. Though Blackburn had a "sugar daddy" in Jack Walker, the essential difference lies in the fact that in Sir Jack Walker, we had an owner who knows his football, loves the club and had the commonsense to leave the football matters of the club to the manager then, Kenny Dalglish. Even after his death, Sir Jack Walker continued to finance the club through a trust fund which Blackburn have continued to benefit through prudent transfer activities. Arsenal, on the other hand, can thank Arsene Wenger for his shrewd transfer dealings which enable the club to break from the norm and achieve sustained success and continuity while balancing the accounts of the club. Wenger once said that football should function in a way that clubs in the red should not be allowed to participate in the league. While some may regard the remark as sour grapes as Wenger looks at the riches of the big clubs in Europe, I must agree that such a view should be the way, though it is sadly utopian and far away from the reality which we are facing right now.

If football clubs should be regarded as a business, then clubs should not be constantly in the red without a sustainable long term plan to balance the books (examples: Chelsea, West Ham and probably Manchester City). Manchester United can justify their spendings through extremely successful marketing in the global market as well as the seemingly ever-expanding Old Trafford to generate the neccessary revenue while Arsenal has been constantly in the black through their transfer activities without seriously threatening their status as the elites in England. If clubs are regarded as really football clubs, then all the more we should have a more level playing field with rules and regulations to prevent the influx of foreign money from degrading the beautiful game into a playground of the riches.

On the last note, I really hope that Newcastle fans can boycott the next home match against Hull City. I am not against Newcastle, but rahter hope that football fans can stand up and let the idiots in the boardroom know that football is essentially about the fans, a game for the people and not to forget that it is public money which in the first place created the lucrative English Premier League. I'm personally hoping against hope, but maybe, just maybe, a near empty St. james' Park next weekend can be the wake up call that the Premier League and football as a whole needs to get itself out of the ridiculous insanity happening right now.

带着回忆，缓缓前进

今天与michelle到Funan IT Mall吃晚餐
对了，就是我和shijie两年多前约会的地方
已经两年多没到那里去了
还记得以前，我连在巴士上经过时
都必须紧闭双眼，不敢看它一眼
现在我已能再次踏入那里
我想，我已进步了吧

进入Funan IT Mall
原先以为的熟悉，却变成了冷漠的陌生
shijie光顾的理发厅还在
我们一起等德士的德士站还在
我们一起逛的书店也还在

但是，我们一起吃晚餐的食阁已改头换面
并且搬到了五楼
那间我买花给shijie的花店不在了
那张我曾坐过的红色沙发椅也不在了
原本应该是个让我勾起无限回忆的地方
一个在我梦中仍会不时出现的场景
此时的我却几乎认不得了
连寻找我们曾踏过的足迹
也变得如此艰难。

有些人，事或物
一旦失去，往往难再寻回
能做的，大概只有把一切牢记在心
用一生的精力对抗时间
让一切保存得清晰，持久

然而，我也觉得
那些想努力保存的回忆
应该成为我们往前进的踏脚石
而不是阻止我们前进的障碍
我已渐渐觉得自己能带着shijie留给我的回忆
缓缓地踏着前进的步伐
shijie，这大概也是妳希望的吧？

KTV@TopOne

Just had a 4 hour KTV session with my beloved colleagues at Topone KTV in Bugis. Reason? To celebrate Benjamin making it to Bangkok? Or to reward Ms Wong for her effort all these while? Or to celebrate Michelle passing her PGI exam? Whatever, who says there needs to be a reason to sing and be merry? Anyway, this was actually my very first time there coz firstly, I usually patronise KBox or Partyworld and secondly, I really don't go out that often :p Anyway, I had to agree with Benjamin's recommedations to go to Topone coz firstly, selected drinks are free flow. Secondly, the price is reasonable (I didn't really go and compare but from past experience, it's not bad for a friday night) and most importantly and to my pleasant surprise, the songs are really updated, including my current favourites 萧敬腾 and 陈奕迅. Didnt attempt 萧敬腾's songs yet coz not in my best condition and I figured that to sing his songs and not get booed, i have to be at my best :p Did sang 陈奕迅's new song 不要说话. Great to find another song which I am comfortable with. Anyway, most of my colleagues are really "on" with singing so I kinda categorised them according to their unique characteristics and based on the hottest and most well known singers. So here we go:

Benjamin aka "王力宏"

His first song, or his warm up song, is always "落叶归根" and his "Kiss Goodbye" and "forever love" are great as well. A strong voice with the ability to hit the highest notes which i seriously envy.

Kenneth aka "张信哲"

I still remembered when we had our first ktv and we took a while to get Kenneth to sing and when he chose "过火", I was like "whoa". However, after he opened his mouth and sang, I was like "WHOA!". Haha his singing voice is very different from his talking voice which is why most of us were so surprised. His "不要对他说" is brilliant as well. He also like to choose Mayday's songs and get me to accompany him to sing or shout the high notes :p

Sinyee aka "Faye of F.I.R"

This is my personal opinion as though she usually sings from a variety of singers such as 孙燕姿, F.I.R and 张惠妹, her voice is kinda light and "floaty" which is the reason why I chose Faye in her category. Just a mention, she is my "partner" whenever I want to show off my chinese rapping with "中国话" and "有你真好" is kinda our friendship song.

Michelle aka "王菲"

I heard her sing for the first time today and I have to say her voice is quite good. She sang this " 催眠" and really impressed me a great deal. She also likes 张惠妹 and 郑秀文 but she still stood out as "王菲" for me.

Weizhong aka "周华健"

Haha not because of anything but because "朋友" is the first song which I heard him
sing. Has a deep, manly voice and hopefully will open up and sing more after a few more sessions.

Jason aka "张学友"

My boss, who actually sings quite well even though everytime he will first say no when we ask him to sing. I first heard him sing "我等到花儿也谢了" and haven't forgotten it till today.

Myself aka "?"

I honestly don't know who I can categorise myself with coz even though my warm up songs are usually "断点" and "江南", the songs which are chosen for me every time during a ktv session will be "牛仔很忙" and "中国话", thanks to my ability to sing or read the lyrics fast enough :p

There are others who i either can't categorise them yet (Ms Wong whose singing and knowledge of new songs surprised me greatly, Jaslyn who has a cute and "cartoon" voice) or haven't heard them sing before (KC, elaine and Gesmin). Well, with such an "on" batch of colleagues, I'm sure we'll have another KTV session soon and sing our hearts out!

在天堂第十四层的天使

每当上升前往天堂第十四层
冷汗总会无法控制地流
心跳有如脱缰野马般
全身肌肉开始迅速紧绷

叮咚！到了！
踏出去，转向左
天使的美丽尽收眼帘
小步小步地往天使走去
一种难以言喻的矛盾心情

面对天使
我这个大嘴巴总是哑口无言
仿佛是被那双清澈的双眸和甜美的笑容
给慑住了

故作轻松地闲聊几句
天使意外地分享自己的喜好
举手投足看出纯洁的天真浪漫
这一刻，对话的字句，眼神的交流，专属于我们两人

面对天使，不必多说什么
只要见一面，心情便会好一些
就有如神奇的魔法
让嘴角不自觉地往上扬

感觉与天使的距离拉近一些些
虽然未来无人知
但至少我能庆幸
因为我知道有位能神奇地让我微笑的天使
就在不远处 :)

The five people you meet in heaven

Lesson 1:

"...there are no random acts...deep down, all lives intersect...One withers, another grows."

Lesson 2:

"...Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire to...Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."

Lesson 3:

"...Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves...no one is born with anger."

Lesson 4:

"...Lost love is still love...it takes a different form, that's all...Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it...Life has to end, love doesn't."

Lesson 5:

Our existence, where we are, what we do, all mean something to people around us.

(I feel that the author purposely have a child as the fifth person so that readers can interpret the fifth lesson for themselves.)

Quotes:

"...Strangers are just family you have yet to cme to know."

(Indeed, sometimes strangers can be more open, more honest, more caring to you than the supposedly "friends". This is something i feel deeply in my career as a financial consultant.)

"...The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone."

(If that is the case, I must have wasted a hell lot of time...)

"...All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absrobs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair."

(This was a topic which drew myself and shijie closer. I won't go as far as to say that all parents damage their children, but the fact is to expect every parent to be as self-sacrificing and as caring as many want us to believe, is simply irrealistic. Parents are humans after all.)

"Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometims, underthe angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive."

(A really adequate description of love. Something for every couple to ponder as the challenge is always there to keep the flame burning after passion inevitably dies out.)

Words from a joker

Hehehehe...I'm the joker

I'm a devil? Noooooooo!!!!

I'm an angel...an angel who lets you see

See the darkest side of yourself

A side which you have never seen

Why follow the hypocrisy?

Why not let yourself free?

Untie everything that is binding you

Leave the commitments the the dorks

Leave the virtues to the nerds

Rip apart the silly mask of kindness and friendliness

For behind every mask is a heart that seeks to hurt

Hurting others for one's own satisfaction

Every word is but a lie

Merely to manipulate people's minds

Every action is but a farce

Merely to deceive people's eyes

Creation comes only after destruction

And salvation only comes after demolition

so rip that mask and break free

Be free, be merry and be happy

Have a laugh, have some fun

For everything only ends in oblivion

Hehehehehe!!!!

Hahahahaha!!!!

从四川来的好朋友

还记得第一次看见她，是在今年的一月
当时她的训练刚结束，正在收拾东西准备离开
鸡婆的我原本想过去打个招呼
但是看她面带倦容，毫无表情，便打消了主意

后来她正式进入公司，我也和她正式地认识
聊着聊着，很自然地熟络起来
原来她来自遥远的四川
姓张名琪，英文名字叫michelle

这下子可好了
统一份子遇上了台独份子
幸亏没大打出手
反而成了无所不谈的好朋友

她眼睛大大的，炯炯且有神
她桑门大大的，远近皆可闻
她身子瘦瘦的，风吹不留痕
她心肠直直的，说话很中肯

我们几乎无所不聊
聊着毕此的过去，现在与未来
聊着周围发生的事情
聊着一些有的没的，仿佛聊不完似的

她让我觉得她能了解我想表达的东西
她让我感觉到她是用心在听我说话的
她是我的聆听者
而且会把我在乎的事记在心上，不会听了就算

我曾经借她我的毕业袍
我曾帮她庆祝生日
我也在各方面尽我所能地帮助她
因为总觉得不能亏欠她

还记得四川大地震时，我真的是日夜牵挂
每天祈祷她和alex及他们的家人都平安无事
她的每一则报平安的简讯都像是颗定心丸
而最后大家都平安，真的是谢天谢地

她从四川回来后，就感觉她不太对尽
那天她在会议时落下眼泪，也证实了我的感觉
大家帮她办了个小小的生日会，送上了“小希”
只希望她在异乡也能感觉到些许的温暖





现在的她
照常地大声说话，大声欢笑
照常地取笑我，也照常地关心我
相信她已经好多了

很庆幸能认识这位四川来的好朋友
纵使未来存在着无数的未知
我坚信我们的友谊能经得起时间和地域的考验
因为用真心交的朋友，也是一生相伴的朋友

如此而已

不想再当个不打烊的便利店
不想再当个即用即丢的纸巾
不想再自以为是地付出
然后不切实际地期盼
最后咎由自取地失望
不想再为了无谓的人或事
产生些无谓的情感

所以必须调整，改变
好让一切风平浪静
以后的角色
只是一位同事
只是一位聆听者，一位可供倾诉的对象
如此而已

在你和天空之間

很喜欢这段歌词里那种在绝望中抓紧一丝希望的感觉。。。

在你和天空之间只看见你
在梦和希望之间拥抱你
在爱和体谅之间靠近一点
让我们的心能完全重叠
让我们一起再冒险

让

“...太绝对的爱，变成了活该，朋友要我责怪。 我却只想重来，也许这就叫爱...”

新朋友：Jolin

最近认识一位新朋友
她的名字叫Jolene
但好玩的我
常叫她Jolin，蔡依林或天后

认识她不足两个月
但她却开朗坦率得可怕
认识不到一天就sms我关于她男友的事
认识不足两个月，她已经大略告诉了我她一生的情史

或许是她的坦率吓坏了我
或许是她的用心感动了我
毕竟能从头到尾读完我的blog，不能说她不用心
所以我也把shijie的事详细地告诉了她

我详细地说
她用心，认真地听
衷心的慰问和劝告
让我知道她是真心地想知道

朋友不靠时间衡量，只求真心
谢谢妳用心读完我的blog
谢谢妳用心听者我和shijie的事
谢谢妳用心交我这个朋友 :)

A moving sentence by a judge

Below is an excerpt from the sentence passed by Justice Tay Yong Kwang in relation to the famous Corporal Dave Teo case which i felt was really thought-provoking and inspiring on equal measures. Never thought that such words could be heard in a courtroom...

"...To everything there is a season. There was a time when u loved, there came a time when you hated. There was a time when you felt you wanted to kill, now is the time for you to heal. There was a time you were broken down, now is the time to build yourself up. There was a time when you were at war in your being, now is the time to restore peace within."

Upon further research, i found out that this phrase was inspired by a passage in the Bible though i myself prefer the judge's version in terms of the circumstance under which he said these words and the message he was trying to get across. Regardless of who these words were initially meant for, I was personally touched by them and to whoever feels the same or more after reading them, you have my best wishes and may you find the strength within the depths of your heart to overcome whatever trouble you may be facing in life.

再一次拥有

。。。字字句句都唱入心坎里。。。


我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

Time afer time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

。。。你敢对谁做这样的承诺呢？

保管

每当听到这首歌，心情总会变得平静一些。。。


。。。每个人，都有个港湾，就是他，漂流的答案。。。

Pinky!

A cute little pink car which I saw while on the bus one day...

Tioman Trip 2008

A loving couple


Bamboo


Beach01


Beach02


Island


Miniwaterfall


Sea01


Sea02


The evening horizon

迟来的毕业旅行

太阳还未升起
夜幕还未掀起
我已来到这里
寻找两年前的妳

两年前的妳，在这里准备离去
到个不知名的小岛去
我们通过电话，仿佛不愿分离
那份不舍之情依旧清晰

到了小岛，我们继续连系
像是要耗尽手机的最后一点电力
妳与我分享小岛上的点滴
我好希望能立刻到妳身边去

妳曾说过等我毕业一起到那里去
两年后的今天，只有我一个人在这里
等着巴士把我载到目的地
开始我迟来的毕业旅行

朋友

朋友不讲出生
朋友不计富贫
朋友不论男女
朋友不必刻意

朋友只需真心
朋友只求不弃
朋友只随缘遇
朋友只愿相惜

只是

大清早的电话，只是怕妳迟到
包包里的夹克，只是怕妳会冷
深夜里的不眠，只是怕妳寂寞
口袋里的纸巾，只是怕妳流泪

无条件的付出，只是要妳好点
断了线的沟通，只是妳没注意
无意识的伤害，只是妳没察觉
无为何的逗留，只是放不下妳

其实。。。

今天是第一次看到她穿着类似制服的样子
其实，不必涂脂抹粉
其实，不必复杂服饰
只要像那样简简单单的
不就已经是最美丽，最自然的样子吗？

Back Here

...was going through the music files in my pc when i discovered this old song which i haven't heard for a long long time...

Here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

我愛你

...往往两个人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明...

最近还好吗？

“最近还好吗？”
一句简单的问候
可是却应该也是一辈子也无法对妳说的话。

平安回来

从前在电视上看到天灾
虽然会震惊，会同情
但毕竟是隔岸观火
所以没有切身之忧

这场四川大地震
正好发生在我好朋友的家乡
她和丈夫已回国
而我的心也忐忑了起来

看到死亡人数高达1万多人
我庆幸她们的家人都平安
看到余震和食水及医疗用品短缺的消息
我担心她们在那里的处境

每天尽可能留意新闻
随着每一则消息而紧张
无时无刻的挂念
只希望她们一切安好

Michelle
妳说过妳会在25日回来
妳和alex一定要保重
平平安安的回来

SMS to 佩芬 16

07:39:06 05-05-2008

WRM Wesley: hi peifen & cruz! Heard yr qn abt how much to offer for a charity meal individually with the 2 of u. For peifen, btw $100 to $200.

夜空与海

难得能独自到夜晚的海边
静静地坐在柔软的细纱上
进入眼帘的
是辽阔的夜空及绵绵的海
传入耳朵的
是海对夜空说的话
说些什么呢？

不绝的海浪声
正诉说着对夜空的思念
无边无际
就像大海一样

夜空的右上角
悬挂着皎洁的圆月
虽然只占夜空的一小角
却闪闪发亮
照亮漆黑的海面

月光倒映在海面上
就像是夜空与海
共享着一样的月光
一样的回忆

我的思念
像海浪般绵绵不绝
我的回忆
像月光般皎洁明亮
我会像海一样
不断思念着妳
用只占据妳人生中短暂的时光
点亮我的生命及对妳的爱

情难枕

如果一切靠缘份, 何必痴心爱着一个人
最怕藕断丝连难舍难分
多少黎明又黄昏
就算是不再流伤心泪, 还有魂萦梦牵梦的深夜
那些欲走还留一忘情深
都已无从悔恨
早知道爱会这样伤人, 情会如此难枕
当初何必太认真
早明白梦里不能长久, 相思不如回头
如今何必怨离分
除非是当作游戏一场, 红尘任它凄凉
谁能断了这情份
除非把真心放在一旁, 今生随缘聚散
无怨无悔有几人

梦后感

原来只是一场梦
虽然感觉是如此真实
那个熟悉的身影
那副熟悉的脸庞
那把熟悉的声音
让我在醒来的第一秒
还认为一切是真的

知道只是一场梦
失落再所难免
但妳也已好久没出现在我的梦里
所以，还是很高兴能在梦里与妳相遇
如果能控制梦境
我希望每一个梦里都有妳

日有所思，夜有所梦
是我对妳的思念
在梦境里化成妳吗？
不知道妳又是否梦见过我呢？

原来...

和朋友在一起的我
在不远处发现妳
我不顾一切冲向妳
妳却上了计程车

看着计程车迅速离开
我连忙上了另一部计程车
告诉司机尾随载着妳的计程车
可是，我马上发现自己的钱包和手机
还留在朋友那里
不甘心但也无可奈何
我只好叫司机折返回去

拿回钱包和手机
我拨了妳的手机号码
...嘟嘟...通了！
“小师弟...”
那又陌生又熟悉的感觉让我顿时不知所措
“师姐...妳还好吗？”
“我等一下再打给你。”
“好。”

然后...我醒了。
原来...只是一场梦。

SMS to 佩芬 15

08:29:42 08-04-2008

WRM Wesley: morning peifen! Some regard their jobs in servicing as just jobs so they maynot go the extra mile for customers or understand their needs. Pragmatism may be the issue here with some having a "just get the job done" attitude & not put their heart & passion into wat they do.

Reply: i do agree with you. guess it's in our culture to be more realistic than passionate. think u made a very good point...thanks! :)

遥远

一次又一次的挣扎
一次又一次的懦弱
一次又一次的崩溃
一次又一次的无助

始终敌不过对妳的思念
始终敌不过对妳的依赖

明知不会有回应
还是抱着万分之一的希望
按下那组不敢想起的号码
输入想对妳说的话
再按下“send”字键

需要妳的一声鼓励
需要妳的一丝在乎
需要妳回头看一眼
但传出去的简讯就有如石沉大海
一点回应也没有
就如所料一样

只想再见妳一面
只想再听妳叫一声“xiao shidi”
只想再看一次妳传的简讯
只是shijie妳已离开
丢下我一个人
走得好遥远，好遥远....

看着妳

看着妳，才几个月而已
看着妳，从路人变知己
看着妳，从陌生到熟悉
看着妳，走进我生命里

看着妳，在微笑或哭泣
看着妳，是得意或失意
看着妳，在愧疚或生气
看着妳，是快乐或伤心

看着妳，接着妳的泪滴
看着妳，平息妳的怒气
看着妳，开解妳的忧虑
看着妳，只为了守护着妳

TiAmo

很喜欢这首歌。但是，明明是一首甜蜜浪漫的情歌，为什么我每一次听到却会眼眶泛泪，心里一阵酸楚？或许是因为我深知自己已失去了一些永不复得的东西，例如幸福和快乐吧。。。

无价

上衣@Topman: $83


上衣@Project Shop: $89.90


裤子@Espirit: $99.90


鞋子@Giordano Concepts: $90

.....

她的fashion tips: 无价! :p

真挚的情谊

所有的顾虑，所有的担忧
在一顿晚餐的时间内化为乌有
一样的愉快攀谈
一样的轻松分享
原来真挚的情谊并没我想像中脆弱
原来我并没有失去这份真挚的情谊

这些，是妳想对我说的话吗？

听到这首歌，心里一阵悸动。。。



你說過牽了手就算約定
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像來不及許願的流星
再怎麼美麗也只能是曾經

太美的承諾因為太年輕
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像是精靈住錯了森林
那愛情錯的很透明

这些，是妳想对我说的话吗？

小题大作？

今天并不愉快，因为和她有点小磨擦。其实也不是什么大不了的事，可能是下午炎热的天气让好几晚没睡好的我格外心浮气躁吧。她问我一个和工作有关的问题，而我则很肯定的回答她，因为我也有和她类似的案子。可是，她却说她的说法才是正确的，而我是错的。我一直说“是这样的”，而她一直说“是那样的”。说着说着，我不知为何地感到很不耐烦，因为我很肯定我所说的是正确的。我说：“我只把我所知道的告诉妳，要不要相信随便妳”。她听了便说要打电话向一位经理确认。人的脑袋是很可怕的，明明不是什么大不了的事，可是经过一番胡思乱想却能够小题大作。就像当时，我心里的感觉是：难道我在她眼里是个信口雌黄的人吗？我自认自己是个对自己所说的一字一句都十分重视的人。不知道的，我会坦白的说不知道。不清楚的，我会明了的说不清楚。所以当她说要打电话向经理确认时，我着实有种不被信任的感觉，好像是自己的信誉也不过如此而已。这种感觉很伤，尤其是对一个推心置腹的朋友来说。我当时是又伤心又生气，于是也打电话向另一位经理确认。最后，我的说法并没有错，只是细节没说的很清楚。满腹郁闷的我，赌气的传了一则简讯，告诉她以后有问题想知道答案，就去找真正信任的人，不要浪费自己的时间。她回复，说我反应太大了。其实后来冷静下来后，我也觉得自己太小题大作了，可是我并不想否认自己真实感觉到的不悦。所以我回复说：“我的反应是诚实而直接的。但我承认自己的反应过度了。对不起。”

整件事就是这样，而此时的我并不知道她是否还把这件事放在心上，因为她并没有回复我的简讯。她有时可以粗枝大叶得让我怀疑她是不是男的，有时却心思细腻得让我惊讶。所以我不知道她到底是早已把这件事忘了然后去忙自己的事，还是还在介意我的失态。无论如何，我本身是很懊悔，也很意外的。懊悔的是自己的小题大作和胡思乱想。意外的是自己的反应，因为我一直以为自己对她是不可能动气的。老实说，她是常常让我伤脑筋，但我从来没有介意过或放在心上。这次，连我自己都无法理解自己的反应。可能刚好她在我心浮气躁的时候碰到我的罩门，也就是我的诚信及我期望得到的信任吧。。。

會呼吸的痛

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛 連沈默也痛

崇拜

我活了 我愛了 我都不管了 心愛到瘋了恨到算了就好了
可能的 可以的 真的可惜了 幸福好不容易怎麼你卻不敢了呢

我還以為我們能 不同於別人
我還以為不可能的 不會不可能

只要她笑了，就够了

第二次看到她的眼泪，在2007年的最后一天。在喧闹市区的购物中心里的一间港式茶餐厅。在我的面前。我们点了一份蜜糖奶油土司和一杯奶茶。我和她吃了几口，喝了几口，她的手机突然收到一则简讯。她让我看，是一些埋怨她的话。她很生气，开始对我说着她心里的不满，无奈，失望和委屈。有一些事我曾听过，有一些我未曾听过。说着说着，眼泪开始盈眶。说着说着，眼泪开始滑落面颊。这一次，她用自备的纸巾擦干眼泪。口里吃着沾满蜜糖和奶油的土司，她的神情却没有半点甜蜜。话题一转，她开始说起她的侄女圆圆。她说很希望在农历新年时能够看到圆圆，因为她是个可爱的开心果。她说着圆圆眯着眼笑时有多可爱，说着她才两岁就会读apple,crocodile和puma，说着她如何把她最喜欢的doraemon叫成‘mon mon’，说着她在第一次见到她时就坐在她的腿上看电视。。。看着她在谈着圆圆时由愁转喜的样子，我也好想亲眼看看这个可爱的小女娃。说着谈着，时间已不早，我到柜台结账，在服务生找钱时，我只拿走了钞票和五毛，一块钱的银角。她说已经有service charge了，不必浪费钱。我说这是一路来的习惯。她说有冲动想拿走那些剩余的银角。我故作撒娇状说以后听她的。她笑了。我不管她是笑我可爱还是笑我恶心，只要她笑了，就够了。