Tuesdays with Morrie：读后感（三）

Chapter 18: The Eightieth Tuesday: We Talk About Money

Do you know how they brainwash people? They repeat something over and over...Owning things is good. More money is good. More property is good. More commercialism is good. More is good. We repeat it-and have it repeated to us-over and over until nobody bothers to even think otherwise. The average person is so fogged up by all this, he has no perspective on what's really important anymore.

Wherever I went in my life, I met people wanting to gobble up something new. Gobble up a new car. Gobble up a new piece of property. Gobble up the latest toy...These were people so hungry for love that they were accepting substitutes. They were embracing material things and expecting a sort of hug back...

这段毫无疑问是在描素现今的功利社会，
一个物欲横流，急功近利的社会。
每个人都想拥有些什么，
而拥有越多却越想要更多，
而且也越害怕失去。
一个人的眼睛只看到自己眼前所拥有的东西，
就会看不到自己身边及身后，关心自己的人。

很喜欢这句“They were embracing material things and expecting a sort of hug back”，
写得很直接，很讽刺。
的确，
再快的跑车，
再大的房子，
再多的金钱，
都不能给你一个温暖的拥抱。

而说到拥抱，
最近常收到简讯的“拥抱”。
很感激，
因为很窝心，很温暖，
却也让我更加渴望一个真实的，有体温的拥抱。
而你，
什么时候可以这样地抱我一下呢？

Chapter 19: The Ninth Tuesday: We talk About How Love Goes On

...their eyes glaze over if you speak for more than thirty seconds. They already have something else in mind- a friend to call, a fax to send, a lover they're daydreaming about. They only snap back to full attention when you finish talking, at which point they say "Uh-huh" or "Yeah, really" and fake their way back to the moment.

这个坏毛病，
我能在自己及旁人的身上找到。
有试过当一个不是很投缘的同事在和我说话时，
没讲几句我的脑袋就神游了，
只留下几分专注力，
尝试去捕抓支字片语，
以便待会儿附和，应酬一下。
也试过有心事找人诉苦，
但在掏心掏肺许久后，
才发现对方已经在闪神了。
把她的魂招回来，
她才猛然惊醒，
无辜地问我刚才说什么。
这时的我，
也只好安慰自己说，
至少我把心事说出来了。
要找一个能百分百专注听自己说话的人，
可是不容易的。

Chapter 20: The Tenth Tuesday: We talk About Marriage

Friends are great, but friends are not going to be here on a night when you're coughing and can't sleep and someone has to sit up all night with you, comfort you...

这段话让我想起两点。
第一，就是我的一种不想示弱的想法。
我相信自己可以爱着一个人而不在乎对方爱不爱我。
就算对方不爱我，不理我，
我还是能靠自己让这份爱延续下去。
这样的想法，说得好听点可以说成是种忘我，无私的爱。
说得实在点，其实也可以说成是害怕承认自己是需要对方的。
所以，我的这种想法，
是对理念的执著，
还是只不过是自讨苦吃？
我自己也不知道。

第二，则是我如何看待自己的下半辈子。
在自己老了，病了，什么都不能做的时候，
我能不能继续忍受孤独，寂寞的煎熬。
现在的我，
可以自己找事忙来排解寂寞，
但当我不能再到处跑，
不能再阅读或打字，写字时，
我该怎么办？
不是我悲观，
而是已开始对未来的孤独做心理建设的我，
很难不去想这些问题。